My boyfriend often appears in my mind. Whenever I wake up in the middle of the night, my face is full of sweat. This feeling has appeared for about half a month. I went to the hospital many times for examination, and there was nothing serious wrong with my health. The doctor only said that I might be under too much pressure at work, and suggested that I relax every day and not think nonsense.
But when it comes to this, I feel like I’m very incompetent. I can’t even control my boyfriend. I also let others take advantage of it. In the end, it came to nothing.
I think I’m a very simple girl. I don’t like the male colleagues around me making fun of me. Sometimes they even say that the jokes are too much, which makes people unbearable. But they didn’t take it seriously at all, and they were still the same, which made me extremely embarrassed. In my department, most of them are boys, and there are few girls, including me, there are only three people. And I’m the only one who hasn’t got married. Others have been married for many years.
After being introduced to a boy by others, I felt like a very good man at first sight, but with the deepening of understanding, I found that he was a very special man, a boy with two-sided personality. During the day, he had no major problems, pretended to be serious, and spoke and acted steadily. But at night, he often went out to play crazily. Most of the places he went to were song and dance halls, nightclubs and other entertainment places. I don’t know if he did that kind of thing inside. He always felt uncomfortable and didn’t take it seriously.
This relationship lasted for two months, after which we broke up completely. I want a man who feels very reliable, who can give me a sense of security and happiness. I can’t be half hearted, let alone go to a nightclub to have fun.
My best friend joked that there are really few good men now, and they have been snatched away by others in advance. When you become an old girl, it will be a tragedy. I don’t believe that there are no good men in this world. Maybe I haven’t met them myself. Once fate comes, God will patronize my small world, so I have been insisting and rejected many men’s love.
One afternoon in July, I took the bus to work, but I got up late in the morning and didn’t bring my change in a hurry. When I got on the bus, I didn’t have any change in my pocket, and I forgot my bus card at home. At that time, a boy helped me put in a dollar coin. At that time, I just said thank you and it was over.
After that, when I went to work every day, I often met that boy. Later, I learned that he worked in the building opposite our company. He was a middle-level manager with a room and a car. At that time, after knowing this situation, I couldn’t help being happy and thinking that this is the man I want. He is very considerate, understands girls’ thoughts, often surprises me, has a car, a house and a deposit, and is a good man loved by everyone.
We had a relationship the second time we met. At that time, I didn’t want to do that, but looking at my boyfriend’s worried and uncomfortable appearance, I felt soft and went to bed.
I love my boyfriend, and my boyfriend also loves me. Now that I give my body to him, I can firmly control my boyfriend. That’s what I thought at that time. I thought it was a very correct theory, but now it seems very naive and ignorant. My best friend told me that don’t try to tie a man’s heart with sex. Some men’s hearts can’t be tied. It’s a big mistake to rely on sex alone.
My best friend’s words were finally verified in my boyfriend, which is the last thing I want to see, but it really happened in front of me, which caught me off guard, confused my mind and confused my hands.
After I was pregnant, I felt very excited and couldn’t wait to tell my boyfriend the happy event. But what I didn’t expect was that the boyfriend’s response was very cold, even disgusting. Finally, he said coldly: “I don’t want children for the time being. You should get rid of them as soon as possible.”.
I didn’t listen to my boyfriend and wanted to keep my children. That day, I went to our rented house, but it was empty. The neighbor said that a man had just moved out yesterday.
I think my boyfriend must want to avoid me, but why? We are boyfriend friends. I am pregnant, which is a good thing. Why did my boyfriend disappear. I have thought about it many times. I have thought about it all the time. In my mind, I have repeatedly recalled the love scenes I used to get along with. I have never thought of anything wrong. After thinking for a long time, I decided to follow my boyfriend after work to find out the truth.
After work, I followed my boyfriend all the way to the place where he lived. It was a very luxurious villa. At that time, I ran into the villa and asked my boyfriend what was going on, but his boyfriend pushed me away and scolded me as crazy. I was shut out.
I walked home slowly with heavy steps. I didn’t sleep that night. I was tossing and turning in bed. I just didn’t understand why my boyfriend betrayed me. At that time, I didn’t know that my boyfriend was married. Thinking that the woman was Xiao San, I decided to join my boyfriend to drive Xiao San away.
When I came to the door the second time, I asked my boyfriend to tell me that he was going to marry me, but the boyfriend held the woman’s hand tightly and shouted, “I don’t know you. Please hurry up. I’ve been married a long time. This is my wife.”.
Angry, I slapped the woman, but what I got was two slaps from my boyfriend, which made my quarrel bleed. After making trouble for more than half an hour, I was heartbroken. The closed door was like a shackle, cutting off my feelings. I want to get rid of my child. When things get so bad, I can only get rid of my child.
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