An immoral date
Last Saturday, when I received a phone call from Qin Shun, I knew it was wrong, but I still couldn’t help trotting downstairs, crossing two alleys and heading straight for the old place. After getting on the bus, my first words were: “this is our last solo date, and we can’t continue.”
He smiled: “you’ve said this many times. Don’t be too nervous. I’ll take you to a good place.” “I’m serious. You know, I’m getting married soon…”
Before I finished, he opened the CD and played lyrical music.
More than an hour later, we arrived at a remote farmhouse restaurant. The primitive water wheel, the secluded pond, the elderly fishing by the water, and the simple wooden tables and chairs I used to sit in when I was a child made me feel like I had entered a paradise and put all the mundane things behind me.
Qin Shun held my hand and whispered in my ear, “don’t worry, I won’t hurt you, I won’t make you cry, I will only make you laugh happily!” I was so moved that I even wanted to let time stay at that moment forever.
At this moment, Qin Shun’s * * * sounded out of time. He looked at the display screen, said sorry, and then went aside to answer the phone. I know. It must be his wife.
A few minutes later, he returned to his seat and said “sorry” again. I smiled as if I didn’t care.
Why apologize! From the beginning of this relationship, we both knew what the rules were. I think so, but my heart is sour. In fact, like Qin Shun, I am neither a playboy nor a heartless person. Every time we go out on a date, we feel guilty for our partner. But when we fail to control ourselves for the first time, the flame of lust burns more and more, and it is no longer difficult to control it.
After dinner, Qin Shun said to take me to the suburbs. Not long after the car drove out of the restaurant, my mobile phone rang, and Qin Shun tactfully turned off the music. My boyfriend called and asked me if I had found the right shoes. On that day, my boyfriend originally wanted to accompany me, but for Qin Shun’s date, I temporarily pushed my boyfriend, saying that I would go shopping with my good friend for the shoes on the wedding day. “Well, I’m shopping! I’ll be back later!” In front of Qin Shun, I lied awkwardly, and he also tactfully pretended not to hear.
After hanging up, I felt heavy, uneasy, guilty, sad… All kinds of emotions flooded into my heart. Originally, I was a person who thought highly of myself and pursued beauty. I never thought I would be in this situation. I know it’s immoral to do this, but something has happened. I can’t leave Qin Shun.
Ambiguity in the Office
The year I graduated from college, I smoothly entered a company with high salary and a very good working environment. Because I love my work, I work extra hard, and I am warm and generous. Not long after I joined the company, I was praised by customers and Qin Shun. Qin Shun is a department manager and my immediate supervisor. He is only four years older than me, but he is very strong in business ability, capable and talented, mature and experienced in handling affairs. I have deep admiration for him after working under him for a short time.
With a woman’s intuition, I caught another special meaning besides appreciation from the way he looked at me. He often seemed to pat me on the shoulder or back naturally and properly, and said a few intimate words that lasted until the end. At this time, I always feel red faced and confused. Occasionally, we will feel different warmth when we meet with each other. At work, he always gives me a hand without showing any trace, but he makes me feel no psychological burden. His every move is always so natural.
To tell you the truth, I like Qin Shun, but reason tells me that I should stay away from this man. I don’t want to be a shameful third party, because at that time, he had a girlfriend of five years. But every day, I will unconsciously decorate myself.
One night, because of a business, the whole office was working overtime. In order to treat everyone, he ordered takeout. I just cheered and took one of my own. He sent me a text message: “I don’t like these western foods. Would you like to go with me to eat grilled fish after work?” I answered the text message without hesitation: “yes.”
After work that night, we left like spies, and then met at the next stop.
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